school started last thursday.. and it was what i would say "phew"... i survived the irritating first day... im a kind of girl who has so much expectations and other dreams that i so much want to experience and see with my own eyes.. especially in reality... so maybe i overestimated the capability of the school to actually get HOT new students.. and maybe another best friend to help me survive another terrifying year... i mean im not getting anymore younger even if im still young.. but im a sophomore... and it scares me... i mean i need people or even just one person who i can socialize with that's my level.. i love talking to the people who are a grade older than me.. but i want someone who i feel comfortable with and who i can stick with.. someone who helps me cope up with my insecurities....
bew and arek left.. the only people in class that i can relate with.. even though mild is still there...i cant seem to find the friendship connection with him.. like i found with bew and arek.. i mean i dont just click with him like i did with them... but i guess its my year to be independent ..to know how to stand up alone... but the more im independent the more.. i get to my day-dreaming of the day where its all better.. where the better actually lasts....i always admired the stories of best friends.. but everytime i get close to that that's when i actually lose it....