.....yesterday night i went all the way to the other side of bangkok to watch a hip hop show.. and you noe wat i LOVED it... they were so GOOD... like bravo... standing ovation good.. hehe... they seemed pretty young too... its a different kind of hip hop put together it was so cool....welll of course its different its from FRANCE... they were like flipping... walking on their knees... locking.. poppin....four five six stepping.. and alot more... it was just so DAMN GOOD... what made that day so much better is the very very very very cute FRENCH guy that was like my age sitting in front of us.. heeh.. inside i was laughing the whole time.... hehehe... he was so damn cute tho..hehe...and again.. i also had a stalker...he was stalking me while i was eating.. looking back at me during the show... hehe... so weird.. !!.. creeps me out..hehe...but that show inspircd me to do some dancing again..hehe :) yup il start later!!

.....another interesting story is the that alot of people commented in the grade nine album i made in facebook...especially my COUSIN ahum..hehe.. shes crazy....its funny how family knows family so well... (mariel check it out yourself...you'll laugh...)

oh yea mariel thank you for your comments i just read them.. i ddnt see them.. but i have a c box now.. so its easier for me to see.... if you want you can stil comment on the other one.. i LOVE YOU TOO...hehe.. and yes i think your the only one reading this..hehe ;)

... no interesting thoughts today... besides the fact that im happy that im slowly movin on.... not being my miserable self.. even tho its not obviously obvious...but i slept through the nite without dreaming of him.. woke up today without thinking of him...for it is obvious that he has moved on too.. not reli.. but i want to think so... so this i quote

" if you stop loving me little by little.. i shall stop loving you little by little.." pablo neruda....

It should be as simple as this.... because you cant live life hoping.. dreaming... wishing.. what you have to do is catch it and make it happen....what people mostly forget is that they only have one life to live.. and they should live it the way they want it to be like there is no tomorrw...because one mistake can change your life forever... i've seen it.. i've heard it... and believe me its not great...

but now.. im desperately wanting to get out and have fun or walk or jog or something...take carbs off my body... well.. im starting NOW..... WATCH OUT SUMMER KIM's coming!!

P.S.= happy birthday cedric!!... yoour finally fifteen.. i hope you grow maturely too. hehe kiddin... happy birthday to all birthday celebrants... mwah.. IM OUT..

i was thinking today and i figured that i was living in a fantasy again...i was throwing myself out from the truth and reality that was so clear... but i wanted something to be true so badly.....

maybe it was true for awhile but i guess two stubborn heads makes communication hard...
maybe we missed it...
maybe it was wrong timing...
maybe we both expected different things from each other that it kept us more apart and apart...




playing wit my bad webcam.. hehe.. lol

but now.. im saying whatever....what will be will be... someone reminded me yesterday to accept the fact that he's gone.. and realized that i havent...so here i am moving on... trying to put aside all the memories that was so joyful... but the weird thing is i didnt noe wat he wanted... he doesnt noe wat i wanted..... but apart from all of these unfinished feelings and events and thoughts all i want to do and can do.. is to let go and move on... for again someone reminded me "there are alot of fishes in the sea" and i was the one who told her that....so here i am happy.... free... and about to go back to doing things that i love.. and put all the emotions there...( dance, play, sing)....this is the time when we all stop living in the past and make a better future....

mariel wrote down her things to do and to accomplish this summer... and now im going to copy her and write down my own too.... hehe... love you iel..... i just want to take this time to thank you mariel.. for being there always.. when i need you.. i see your affections and careness even if its not really that seen....we need our heart to heart section... ;)..hehe.. with chocolates of course...we have to plan it..!!


1. go back to praying everyday
2.exercise and lose at least 3 kilograms.. ( i still want my curves to show!!)
3.play piano everyday
4.stretch to grow taller
5.be entered into a dance school
6.fill my shoe collection with fancy high heels ;)
7.try to earn money from someone....
8.go to the BEACH!!...
9. buy bikinis... fancy clothes... PANTS.... dresses
10. buy or borrow one tree hill season 5 from someone to watch with mariel (with chocolates of course) .... (we have to plan it iel..)!!