Exam week!!! last week of school.. Hectic, stressful .....BUSY!!...3 more days to go and summer would start.. some of us hate it... some of us are looking forward to it...

i fear the unknown..... especially the feeling that you dont know you'll feel when something happens... i carry a burden every day now and i dont noe how to getrid of it...im slowly losing my mind and i cant seem to grip on to something hard.... with a burden on you that drags you down..sooner or later will make you feel like you will disappear...away from everything...

i am here and i slowly wait...wen i noe i have unfinished tasks with my hearts
i circulate my mind with worriness, thoughts, doubts wen the solution are just three simple words... but im in denial .... tho i dont want to be... there is a big wall around my heart that wont let the true emotions out... and it hurts every time it tries to go out... but wen it does

wat next...??? where do you go on to...???

this is suppose to be the time where i convince myself that im right and he's wrong... this is suppse to be the time when i act mean and turn all my feelings to anger and hate..for it would pass as we go..... that's the thing i dont want it to pass... i need it.. not want it.. i need it..

i need my best friend... although.... God seems to not like the fact of me having best friends for every single one i had always been taken away from me...and as much as i need it so badly i also cant do anything about it....

Yup... this is the time i convince myself to hate the person you might love so you will hurt no more... but i cant do it.. which makes me simply just STUCK..!!