....every single time i see an amazing concert... artists performing, succeeding, making the most beautiful music to fill our ears and hearts..it gives me the inspiration to do the same... i want to play music, make music, just anything with music...its like suddenly i want to be just like them..... to be one of the legends in music and different genres of music...

i have been performing for a very long time.. people say your good...but i dont see myself as one...not the performer or the musician i expect from myself at least.... although its very fortunate of me to actually get to perform in numerous shows and for different occasions.. there's always this negativity that fills me up, for i've been doing shows that are sometimes and mostly forced... which in those shows i cant seem to enjoy.. its not performing anymore its something to have to do........you cant appreciate what you did on stage anymore, although you still have the energy and the blood rising feeling... once you get out of stage..your just happy that it is finally over... i want to feel like doing an encore... i want to want to go up on stage on my own will...on my own efforts, playing my own chosen music... no limitations, no judgments, no complaints....i want to be touring in a musical, i want to have my very own single, i want to compete in dance competitions, i want to have my own band........

ARE THESE TOO MUCH TO ASK??




signing out
where is my temporary insanity...??