hmm.. how am i suppose to say this... why is it that when i dont have some guy that i think about i keep on searching like crazy... and i have fun while im at it.. i mean its a very normal thing to do... i mean if you do meet the guy that you are looking for.. its a good fairytale story.. "but you noe what i hate.." when you cant control the feelings you have for a "someone"... (this is now a public blog so im not name-ing anyone)...have you ever felt this sudden feeling that hits you so fast that you cant go back to the time where you just look at that "someone" and just adored him for who he is.. NOT expecting him to like you back....and its ironic in a way for he kind of has his own girl already..."i guess i can say this is the first ever that the guy i wanted suddenly didnt like me".... i might be insane or have no clue.. but who cares... feelings come and go right..well at least it does for me...and truthfully i have no idea what my feelings are for that guy.. i can say its different.. i can say its the same.. from the other guys ive liked... but honestly how the hell will i noe... but i noe one thing for sure..that this feeling is not something i can play with because ruining that "someone" would even hurt me.. because i tend to really hurt the guys ive liked... but this "someone" is a great friend... greater than ever... i wont break that even if die and still is keeping these temporary insanities to myself.... but who knows... "the other side of the story might be the same"..


signed OFF
THE HOPELESS ROMANTIC