i was thinking today and i figured that i was living in a fantasy again...i was throwing myself out from the truth and reality that was so clear... but i wanted something to be true so badly.....

maybe it was true for awhile but i guess two stubborn heads makes communication hard...
maybe we missed it...
maybe it was wrong timing...
maybe we both expected different things from each other that it kept us more apart and apart...




playing wit my bad webcam.. hehe.. lol

but now.. im saying whatever....what will be will be... someone reminded me yesterday to accept the fact that he's gone.. and realized that i havent...so here i am moving on... trying to put aside all the memories that was so joyful... but the weird thing is i didnt noe wat he wanted... he doesnt noe wat i wanted..... but apart from all of these unfinished feelings and events and thoughts all i want to do and can do.. is to let go and move on... for again someone reminded me "there are alot of fishes in the sea" and i was the one who told her that....so here i am happy.... free... and about to go back to doing things that i love.. and put all the emotions there...( dance, play, sing)....this is the time when we all stop living in the past and make a better future....

mariel wrote down her things to do and to accomplish this summer... and now im going to copy her and write down my own too.... hehe... love you iel..... i just want to take this time to thank you mariel.. for being there always.. when i need you.. i see your affections and careness even if its not really that seen....we need our heart to heart section... ;)..hehe.. with chocolates of course...we have to plan it..!!


1. go back to praying everyday
2.exercise and lose at least 3 kilograms.. ( i still want my curves to show!!)
3.play piano everyday
4.stretch to grow taller
5.be entered into a dance school
6.fill my shoe collection with fancy high heels ;)
7.try to earn money from someone....
8.go to the BEACH!!...
9. buy bikinis... fancy clothes... PANTS.... dresses
10. buy or borrow one tree hill season 5 from someone to watch with mariel (with chocolates of course) .... (we have to plan it iel..)!!